Saturday, May 7, 2011

Dive, I am still happy

Very happy. When he walks into the room, I still squeal on the inside. Every single time.

But, I'm trying not to squeeze this too tightly, resisting the urge to act like an 8 year old boy who just caught a frog.

I am acutely aware of the fact that sometimes (oftentimes...hell, more times than not) even good things don't last forever. While I'd love for this relationship to have the spirit of a lightning bug with the longevity of a tortoise, I hope I will have the grace and maturity to recount this as a good chapter, no matter its length.

Unfortunately, in my experience, when you really like someone, grace and maturity are the first things to go...

5 comments:

dive said...

Enjoy every single moment, T. You deserve it.

Sara said...

Terroni...I don't even know how I stumbled upon your blog, but I love it!! Love your sense of humor and how you tell a story.

This will sound strange to you, I'm sure, but I have a burning question that you might just be able to help me with. Some input perhaps. I have a scheduled c-section this Thursday, May12th.

Long story short...my last 2 sections did not go well. I had a severe vasovagal response, which I know is common...but it was pretty bad. I'm an RN, rotate between ICU, surgical, and medical...and know that pts aren't given atropine several times, for a "slightly low blood pressure." The anesthesiologist that was with me...both times....was talking to me as she was getting me prepped. The last thing I remember her asking me was how many beds are in the ICU where I worked. I woke up 40 minutes later(felt like 4 min) with my OB standing next to me, ready to get his part started, while looking at the anesthesiologist like, "Well, is she all set, can we begin?" No clue what had just happened, since that isn't his area, and his concern is my belly and baby :-)

Later, the anesthesiolgist said to me, "Wow, you had us all scared in there. I wasn't planning on working so hard that early in the morning." I asked her if it was really bad, she said, "It was crazy, you were not doing well at all. It took us a long time to stabilize you. If you do this again, I think you should be out, out."

The thought of general anesthesia freaks me out... I see it done in ICU, but on me is a different story. My OB nurse friend told me, "Oh, Sara, we do it all the time, the docs can do it in their sleep. It's no big deal. You'll be out and can see your baby in no time."

So I'm thinking I should do gen.anesthesia. The other option I was thinking was epidural, then getting a top-off right before the section. I was fine when she did that. It was the spinal that nearly killed me!!

I had my last appt with my OB last week. He asked me if I had any concerns, I said I'm worried about the c-section..He said, "Well, all that should be in your chart (it's not) and I just do what the anesthesiologists say is best." I asked him if the same one is still working there, and she is. I hope I get her!!

So, any words of advice??

Sorry for using your blog for medical advice....I couldn't help myself!

feel free to email me: dswendt at charter dot net.

Susanlee said...

That's how I feel when I see M. Regardless of the drama and the struggle we had to get to GOOD. It's been 5 years now. The giggle doesn't have to go away. I'm so happy for you!

MmeBenaut said...

lightning bugs and tortoises ... all good!
I told you that he would come along when the time was right. I just love being proved correct!

gitz said...

this makes me happy